December 17, 1998
Spend a little time with
God.
Delight in me -
and I will give you the desires of your heart.
Wow!
How I wish everything
that I do
was delight
spawned
is you.
Lots of it is-
but not all of it.
Can it all?
Are there limitations on how much of my life
I
put in your
hands?
Is it a personal
limit?
Does it vary for each person?
I'm being
judged
so much
right now
and I feel like it's unfair.
As though those
who are supposed to be
my colleagues and inspiration
have chosen to condemn me
right at the
point
where I said
"I'm gonna try harder to be righteous."
They don't believe me.
You do.
They don't see my heart.
You do.
They don't understand me.
You do.
They hurt me.
You don't.
Lord, I hate hypocrisy!
Above most things
I pray that you
will guard me
against
becoming
a hypocrite
and I pray
that you'll enlighten
those around me
to
realize
the difference
between having a sinful nature and being a hypocrite.
I'm afraid to point out when people are just
talking the talk and not walking the walk
because I know they'll
turn the finger on me
and they'll go back
years
if they have to
to quench my light
in the sight of their darkness
Help me not to be afraid
to be bold-
like I promised
and to have the words
to say what
YOU
mean.
I don't want to be a hypocrite
I want to reevaluate myself daily to make sure I'm not
but I also don't want to keep second guessing myself
Boy, there's a thin
line
between
humility
and
confidence
Where do I go?
I guess I can only go to you.
When did I leave?
It always sneaks up on me.
But each time,
our distance from
each other
gets shorter and
shorter
I pray it stays that way.
I'm frustrated
feeling betrayed
this is a good example of
how no earthly
earthly
thing can be trusted fully
but you are the
rock
that never
never fails
You're my stronghold
You are my strength when
I am
weak
(which is often)
I pray that you'll
always
be the treasure that I
seek
be my all in all
live in me
through me
let your love and light
pour through me
and Lord,
I pray for inner peace
to make me strong
in you
for you
of you
you
are my all in all.
Thanks for the things I love
MUSIC!!!!
Jennifer Knapp
Journals
Chapstick
LOVE!!!
Computers
Books
my doggy
Thanks for my trials
Thanks for life, breath
nature
squirrels
trees
art
oil pastes
leadership
all the blessings and gifts
you've given me
Lord, I've given up ~
I'm back...
ready to try again
Do
YOUR!
WORK!
THROUGH!
ME!
I'm ready, and willing, and
able
through you
I can do it all,
Lead me to them,
So I can lead them to you.
I'm ready to try anew
